Planted and allowed to grow (Testimony)
Since I was young, I know God. Since I was young, I believe that God cleans the hearts of those who ask for it. To tell you, I was taught that being good or kind will really send me to heaven. My life before I was a Christian was really a roller coaster ride. Starting of with my studies, my relationship with my family and the hidden desire to have someone with me for me to be comforted.
Life really was a battlefield, when I was in grade school my enemies were my grades, math, my brother and my school. Being bullied, having low grades, studying late and a brother who left you an impression that you are not really needed really took an effect in my life and it really made me insecure about my whole being. I really had an intention of bringing myself to a mental institution because I can’t handle all things at once.
Things changed since I went to high school, and there I knew that Lust is really true. That people really give in to the world, and little by little I know that I was giving in to the world. I started saying bad words and it really was a bad thing for me since my parents taught me that bad words and BAD! There are really questions that really made me think about my life, like : Should I follow them? Should I smoke also? Should I drink illegally? These questions are the ones who made me be who I am today.
I came to know God when I was in second year high school, my mom brought us to CCF, because God told us to grow in a different church and where we can freely worship him in any aspect. I started attended their youth service and I found myself growing in faith. I learned that worship is from the heart and not from what you wear. Growing into the Lord and accepting Him as Lord and savior was not really a bed of roses. I was literally eaten by the world, little by little, without me knowing. I started sinning again, I allow the enemy use me.
When I was in my fourth year in high school, I had this classmate who is starting her walk in Christ wants to go to a youth service and because I wanted to grow more in Christ so I asked her if I can go with her. It was really funny because our first try attending a victory youth service was the “Night Life.” Learning that God really has a lot in store for me really is a blessing and I continue both youth services. By being blessed God really told me to grow in Victory.
In this, I really thank God for allowing me to be planted and to grow. I have my Dgroup and my VGs supporting and guiding me in my spiritual walk. My friend who invited me is in the same VG as me and we are both growing in Christ. I feel so thankful to God and I can say the I am a Jesus Zone and I am secured in God for he has given me a new heart, spirit and life. :)